Revelations

I'm back to not knowing how I feel, but I'm a lot more like living the life I expected at fifteen. I've had some bad sex, some decent sex, some great sex. I've enjoyed the time of a couple men, and expet to enjoy others... But I dunno. . I feel like --fuck. I deserve attention. That's how I feel. ASS. That's not right at all. Fuck. I'm a manipulative bitch. I would rather have some nice guy who adores me, provides an ego stroke, than... I don't know. I guess I'd like something like that. Where I do't have to go out and search for a grin, don't have to worry about being in a serious relationship, wrap my emotions up in all this shit... Why can't I have a fucking booty call? I'll be fine not staying over or making breakfast. Just - ARGH. Googling "How to set up a booty call" next.