I online shop at six in the morning because I want to feel that I'm not alone in the world.
I read advice columns a handful at a time because I'm afraid of making bad decisions.
I make bad decisions, and I tell the world, because I feel like I should be shamed.
I'm bad, I'm wrong, and I've fucked up. Rejection is the worst thing because it's a confirmation of my greatest fear - that in the end, I'll the butt of every joke. And I hate the world for being mean. And I want them to love me. And, most of all, only ever admitted at six-in-the-mornings, I want them to understand me.
I'm a writer because I can't accept that they'll never get it.
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