Questions

I have all these words in my head. I ought to get some out, clear up space. Prepositions. I used to think (elementary school) that I'd be a teacher (English) because they were lovely (great), but then no, because not enough money. And -- here's the point -- I knew that there were all sorts of options, lots of things that would satisfy me, so I should pick from high-paying jobs. And men. My problem with men is that I think I could be happy with most anybody, if he stuck around and talked and loved me. So how do I choose? Do I wait for the epiphany, like I had with my life? Do I just date around, dropping guys who make me grin but aren't enough? Do I take every chance, jump every time, I get the chance, even if it's scary? How do I choose? Keep myself busy? Frequent the bars and maybe meet a guy who makes me smile? Huh.

In T---- (except fuck it I live in S---- now, not that anyone's heard of that) kids are educating themselves in order to suit job slots that won't exist in a hundred, fifty, twenty? years. Money. I resigned myself to never making any a while ago, so it's got to be alright.