Butterflies

I have two speeds: I love you, and I hate you. He likes me, and yet is hung up on his ex -- Amanda -- which apparently screams SLOW DOWN. And I'm a way-too-fast kind of girl, so. What do I do about this? It's got to be an hour or a dat at a time - not calling him tonight because I'm going shooting with The Couple and my phone's dead, so that'll help for a while, anyway. Tomorrow's Wednesday, but I won't call him then, either. Maybe we'll go biking with people, but it's up to him to clarify when/where/if. I just...I don't want to push, which I absolutely did last night when I sortof insisted he stay the night -- although he did say he'd slept well -- maybe it's going to be okay. Obviously I want to sleep with him, but more than that I want to kiss him until he feels something like the butterflies I get when he kisses me. Something like hunger pains.