Jealous

"It would be hypocritical of me...""No good at relationships...""Don't want..." "Shouldn't have..."

I asked him if -- well, I told him, rather. He'd said ages back when this first started that he wouldn't be upset if I wanted to try things out again with Turkic, and at the time I rolled my eyes and laughed, but that's not the important part. I referenced this conversation, and said, "I'd want you to be upset."

And then he fell asleep. I was a bit peeved at this. Anyway, he woke up and explained the above whatever. Which upset me, I think naturally. Rather than say nothing and lay in his arms feeling hurt (a very strange situation) I tried to laugh at myself. I said I understood it logically, but the girlitude in me means that I can't help but hear that I'm not worth being jealous over.

Then he redeemed himself quite beautifully by saying, "When a man says he wouldn't be upset it means he would be upset..." and then something about how he shouldn't stand in the way of something that I want more. Anyway, he got a kiss for not being an asshole. And then we had a lovely conversation about the various sex organs and I kept him up for a while. Yeah, that part was good.